Half Empty

Not much to report today. Still waiting for the TPN to do its work, which is an internal process that we really can't observe. Keep praying that these days with no food in her gut will allow time for it to heal! We spent several hours with her at the hospital this morning and this evening, and she remains in Special Care tonight. I really appreciate that we get some extra rest when she stays there! She was still a little sleepy and definitely still looking sickly today, but the doctor said this morning that she has a good bit of catching up to do energy-wise, so it might take a few days to see any real improvement in her energy level. She did seem more alert today, holding her head up and looking around more and grabbing at things around her. These are very small signs of improvement, although I am ready to see some big signs of improvement!

Yesterday, I was angry. Today, I have become a little fearful. If you know me pretty well, you know that I tend to be a "glass half full" kind of girl. I am not a worrier. I find it easy to believe that things will work out, even when it takes a while. But, today I keep thinking of the what-ifs. I hate thinking about the what-ifs. So, I can only hope (and do believe) that the Lord is using these unfamiliar and uncomfortable feelings to teach me more about myself and about Himself. Please pray that I would not be fearful but would have peace.

Thank you, friends, for loving us!